The anchoring of our identity in the pronoun I is far from safe, asking others to name us this or that, with a passionate need belies a fear captured self conception, trading the value of I in the self esteem market of the 80%. Arguing for goals and desires using feelings as meanings prevents lasting satisfaction. Schadenfreude is rationally absurd and indicates a polluted mindset.
In 2005 my absence from a graduation where I was entitled to collect my masters in Psychosynthesis and a post Dip diploma was caused in my will not to argue at the protest that was due to take place at the ceremony promoted by a terminally ill graduate who had been shoddily treated by the institute of psychosynthesis.
There was subsequently a view taken by Roger Evans a director of the Institute that I was afraid to attend and he was correct, however I knew he did not know was what I knew about the force of reason
it was because I would have won the argument with reason and once reason brings your mind to new understanding the only way to deal with is to lance the error or live in denial.
In one time forward lifetime no two people see the same rainbow. The will to know now, to be aware now is actively polluted by the I that wills not to be aware. The light that fractures into colours we can see through the prism can be sent back to white light the information that flows through the I cannot be sent back in one time forward lifetime. The ecology of a time forward lifetime of awareness is bound to a present in time forward where new understanding emerges in the present not the past.
The willing awareness in the present is not over against what is arising in our I.
is the milky tea, we can never know if all the milk was put in before or after the pouring of the tea, or what the milk was.
The complexity within which our self awareness arises is now more visible to us our unfounded fears and mystery
The concept of Persona crystalised for use in mental therapy by Sigmund Freud a white man who believed women did not have the same potential as men has its roots in oral traditions from within which descriptions of human identity arose and seeded our cultural identities.
Self conceptions derived using orally defined concepts of the human soul as a uniquely separate entity capable of living on in time forward while our human bodies decay and die akin to all other living creatures on Earth. That such concepts emerged in male dominated communities that sincerely believed the world was flat and the earth was at the centre of the Universe should give us pause during recollective reasoning.
We are not just on a planet that is not flat we come into being as humans in the present arising in time forward in one time forward lifetime within an observable pre existing complex system a concept that our flat earth ancestors could never have understood and Persona is not complex system ready no more than Ptolemy's map could help get Elon Musk into space.
It is my willingness to discuss the issue of suicide that makes me think it is time to share these thoughts. When I was 19 my suicide attempt left me staring at the ceiling unable to move my toes or fingers flat on my back looking at the hospital ceiling with a clarity that my eyes no longer enable.
It had taken about 6 weeks to filch a sufficient amount of Grandmas prescription medication to succeed and succeed I would have had I but slept another hour and not walked in my sleep and fallen down the stairs while looking for the loo.
With time to think about my decision over the weeks I used my innocent interpretations of the world as a horrible place for a soul journey, where men whose world it was went to war as boys and never recovered, even if they survived.
The I in me that depended upon the We was existentially at risk as the cave within which the Ego/I is enslaved by virtue of the linear naming while in the dynamics of time forward within lifetime, even a capable human Me~Mind, is doomed by the emergent knowledge flow, like a village in an anciently Dammed valley that cannot pay taxes or survive time forward.
The I from We is never Me let alone all of Me, yet it is this I of Me the We wants.
It is my willingness to discuss the issue of suicide that makes me think it is time to share these thoughts. When I was 19 my suicide attempt left me staring at the ceiling unable to move my toes or fingers flat on my back looking at the hospital ceiling with a clarity that my eyes no longer enable.
It had taken about 6 weeks to filch a sufficient amount of Grandmas prescription medication to succeed and succeed I would have had I but slept another hour and not walked in my sleep and fallen down the stairs while looking for the loo.
With time to think about my decision over the weeks I used my innocent interpretations of the world as a horrible place for a soul journey, where men whose world it was went to war as boys and never recovered, even if they survived.
The I in me that depended upon the We was existentially at risk as the cave within which the Ego/I is enslaved by virtue of the linear naming while in the dynamics of time forward within lifetime, even a capable human Me~Mind, is doomed by the emergent knowledge flow, like a village in an anciently Dammed valley that cannot pay taxes or survive time forward.
The stick that is removed from the water reveals itself as straight the I that came from the sea of We cannot be easily extracted from that sea of We that was our village of origins idea of what an I should be. In complex systems the end is in the beginning before the human poetry declares a mystery.
Some of the educated amongst us have heard, considered and debated about the story of the stick appearing bent in the water until it is revealed as straight which has been used since the ancient greeks as an example of how appearance without examination and testing is unreliable and it turns out that our personal I pronoun is actually similarly distorted in how it appears in each of us privately.
Before some technical explanation of why our I is bent our Me~Minds
The stick that is removed from the water reveals itself as straight the I that came from the sea of We cannot be easily extracted from that sea of We that was our village of origins idea of what an I should be. In complex systems the end is in the beginning before the human poetry declares a mystery.
Some of the educated amongst us have heard, considered and debated about the story of the stick appearing bent in the water until it is revealed as straight which has been used since the ancient greeks as an example of how appearance without examination and testing is unreliable and it turns out that our personal I pronoun is actually similarly distorted in how it appears in each of us privately.
Before some technical explanation of why our I is bent our Me~Minds
The milk is in the Tea already asking if the Tea or the Milk was poured first will not let us separate them subsequently. The name of my I is in Me before I know it and the naming convention upon which it depends is in Me when I understand it.
The isolation of a name in a complex system leaves individuals emerging into life from that name vulnerable to mistaken views of what and who they are along with leaving them susceptible to interventions from some who believe they can help them take separate the tea and the milk.
Imagine a world where people thought the world was flat and the inconsistencies were explained by mystical connections with the divine or some unknowable unconsciousness within the individuals conception of their perceptions. Now imagine a world where a human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime in time present lived experiences compiled in iStates of awareness bundled in stories with inconsistent sunken values as cornerstones of self conception the for the present.
mplexity offers us a relatively new conception although it was ever thus. The
That story about, when you are lost in the Forrest, stand still the trees and the bushes are not lost, was a thorn in the side of my ease in my New Age phase and the solution was so simple and prior that it took years to find. Finding the questions that resonate already in us locally provides an easy start to trace the will to know insights that inspire us and the level of the mystery as it appears in the stories of our individual hoi polloi iStates.
We all construct our first ego I persona using the stories of the We of our villages of origin and for that reason alone we can expect even what may seem as intuitive responses to lived experiences in the present to be self limiting filters of perceptions. Multiple structural reasons exist that make it impossible for parents to understand because their function is rightly defined as teaching survival techniques to their children in an inconsistent system that requires pragmatic engagement to provide a choice between being a perpetrator or a victim, a next level trolly problem
Before gender, race or creed, self conception is the hidden ceiling in perception interpretations in the present of one time forward lifetime, in capable human Me~Minds.
While personally practising esoteric Eastern meditative practices the psychiatrist Roberto Assagolli devised the Psychosynthesis approach to spiritual awakening using a will based approach to understanding and guiding our understanding in our sub personalities. The reaching into the day to day life with the new proposition that there is a knowable spiritual awareness within us that can guide our sub personalities with a new loving vision was a humble effort by a wonderfully inspirational psychiatrist, to share the freedom and release he gained from his own practice. The hoi polloi iStates we arise in every day are never the same and coming at and understanding this from the perspective of the present in time forward it is salutary guide to contrast the time he gave to therapeutic retelling of past stories 'and that;s ok too' type of approach when he was explaining it to those with capable minds
The quality of what can be known in a capable human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime in a series of evanescent iStates of awareness in the present in relationship with lived experience is bound to time forward before the first word is uttered, shared and understood.
Emergent human knowledge flows in a time forward lifetime disabusing sunken values with indifferently evolutionary effects where more knowledge exists regardless of human suffering caused by a will not to know specifically bound to a naturally vulnerable self conception that is bound to the absurd notion that the Greeks could have known better than us based upon a Euodimina that derpends upon riding the passions in a constant ebb and flow of object bound desires we could have
The feelings of wanting to shrivel up and die when we are embarrassed over time belie the absurdity of the intensity of our emotional involvement with embarrassment. We can all remember some moment that now seems even funny when the deep feelings of shame and embarrassment flushed through us like a shiver with with poison sugar rush on steroids flushing through.
Changing our personal I can help us
Naturally some people will think there is no such thing as rational suicide and be tempted to ask why we need to be concerned about irrational suicide and the reason is simple because many people who attempt and commit suicide construct irrational arguments to commit suicide.
It always baffled me how I could be bright, clever and stupid in less than 5 minutes.
It was easy to put it down to mental illness after my failed suicide attempt and rejection of a dream job. Cleverly solving social schemes by becoming what other people want or need while hacking the system I lived in made me willingly stupid, when I imaginatively took on the role of the fool from Shakespeare who was of course the smartest person in the room, in the plays, if not in my very real life.
My inevitable lack of awareness around fashionable clubbable behaviour would appear like an unwelcome priest in a story by Camus inviting me to die with absolution while knowing I was faithlessly falling again unforgivably, without knowing why the rational Mathematics did not guide my choice. The I that cannot yield to reason isolates the identity in any human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime.
A special type of yielding, from the inside out enables anieling of the srrident I in my mind.
Before the instrumental I in Me~Mind, the first I others served me was the I from the We of others.
The hand moves and the causal is revealed emergent knowledge disabuses energetically in capable embodied human Me~Minds living one time forward lifetime.
There are ways we can open a dialectic with the most creative spaces within our minds and if we think that living in self conceptions which filter all perceptions using sentients alone is absurd working to know while actively filtering the knowledge through a self conception that is incapable of understanding the knowable unnameable removes manifold symmetries of understanding.
The abject failure of governance at Boing aircraft company belies a pragmatic danger for new age and mindful awareness techniques introduced to big business as they were exposed to some of the most advances and insightful management training during the 1990's by Tony White an inspired trainer whose approach was wonderful example of servant leadership approach to governance with growth.
The idea that a psychosynthesis trainer is proud of being a supplier of services to big pharma belies a problem for a psychosynthesis if big pharma ever go the way of boing and misuse their power as Boing did when they blamed african pilots of inferior standards as part of their attempts to cover the problems with their products not that big pharma have done anything wrong in africa which is not openly discussed amongst the psychosynthesis trainers and the big
The most pragmatic amongst us make our children capable of surviving in the social absurdity of modern and postmodern life because survival is always the first requirement of providing them with safety. For those of us who have the chance to live a life beyond survival the most delectable present is often the discovery of the new better way, a new better way from beyond the holon cannot be born in the present from shadows on a cave wall.
To be clear the structure of the better game of living one time forward lifetime a is present prior to the start of any human iState of awareness in the present by virtue of emergent knowledge flow occurring within a time forward framework.
and it needs to be of the form the goal and the path are one and the location of the win is in the present.
When we get it wrong millions of people suffer unnecessarily, knowing when it is wrong using suffering as the calibration creates a self limiting holon.
There are the infinity limiting hoi polloi game sets which use names, seas of we and villages of we made simple with U and Non-U local fashions created with exceptionalist self conception in mans measure of his time here on this planet.
The game began before the first human iState in a human Me~Mind and its structure is indifferent to wilful human error during recollective reasoning, the truth is indifferent to human ignorance because it is prior to and beyond the present in any human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime in the present.
What remains is the time forward context within which emergent knowledge flows in the present of one time forward lifetime, the sin in the wavelength energy in the present provides a link to the flow of energy in the present including the energy of information.
Euler's e is more likely to be a better link to the knowable unnameable in a human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime than Mahler's fifth. The insights of young artists Like Billie Eilish or Jeorge seek to talk of the unnameable and the longing belies the TAO gap as the territory begins in the human Me~Mind that can know and be willingly aware of manifold dimensions and infinities that even the most mundane in us can experience with the use of psychedelics and chanting and screaming and dancing and and none of us can ever name or own in some persistent I in me.
How we understand the pronoun I in me can be a matter of life or death or imposter syndrome, particularly for male youths and young men although the sharing of a dysfunctional internalized status with females has narrowed the disparities without reducing the male vulnerability caused by the use of conflated self conception derived from the I of from the sea we in our villages of origin.
There can be a clear awareness of a symmetry in a human Me~Mind during one time forward lifetime where the knowable unnameable is present. Performance in sport or entertainment and artistic creation, can cause a visceral experiences in the present that cannot be described in words and often if not always in some lived experiences provides a moment when the I of me is absent. The knowable unnameable reveals itself in our mind and how we respond belies our habitual psychological and cultural responses. Shamans throughout the ages have struggled with their capacity to influence and who they are in their village of origin.
We may witness or participate in non ordinary states and they cannot be adequately, accurately or plausibly be called I in me. The issue is at the root of fearful confusion that causes conflation of the I in me with the self in me and we can erroneously convince ourselves that we should kill ourselves because the self is being derived using the I in me.
The cognitive processing of emergent knowledge flows for better understanding within present iStates that are compiled using U and Non-U fashionable derivatives are are analogous of what processed food is for nutrition and digestive health.
Although Western attempts at dialogue with the Chinese TAO insights have been respectful in the main the essential nature of the TAO is more akin to the e in Euler's theorem in the flow of a human Me~Mind prior to and presently beyond the pronoun I from our We cultures in our villages of origin that produce our linear U and Non-U sets in our local fashions.
The contingent nature of the pronoun I in a human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime is local and social and the Thou of "I Thou" is also a derivative with the inherent issues that derivatives carry.
The cognitive processing of emergent knowledge flows for better understanding within iStates that are compiled using U and Non-U fashionable derivatives are are analogous of what processed food is for nutrition and digestive health.
Although Western attempts at dialogue with the Chinese TAO insights have been respectful in the main the essential nature of the TAO is more akin to the e in Euler's theorem in the flow of a human Me~Mind prior to and beyond the pronoun I from our We cultures in our villages of origin that produce our linear U and Non-U sets in our local fashions.
The contingent nature of the pronoun I in a human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime is local and social and the Thou of "I Thou" is also a derivative with the inherent issues that derivatives carry.
The cognitive processing of emergent knowledge flows within iStates that are compiled using U and Non-U fashionable derivatives are are analogous of what processed food is for nutrition and digestive health.
Although Western attempts at dialogue with the Chinese TAO insights have been respectful in the main the essential nature of the TAO is more akin to the e in Euler's theorem in the flow of a human Me~Mind prior to and beyond the pronoun I from our We cultures in our villages of origin that produce our linear U and Non-U sets in our local fashions.
The contingent nature of the pronoun I in a human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime is local and social and the Thou of "I Thou" is also a derivative with the inherent issues that derivatives carry.
To de risk, avoid catastrophic failure and reduce the pain of identity tied to sunken values, look at the simple and create a feedback loop.
To be willing to follow the continuous emergent knowledge flow in the present of one time forward lifetime, conflating self conception with brittle identities bound to sunken values that cannot survive inferential understanding, hobbles the present.
A child of, a sibling of, a parent of, a mother of, a father of, a grandparent of, an aunt of, an uncle of, turning 21, names of times in the life of a Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime, which of them fully me.
Identity derived from name is a fragile home for one time forward lifetime, sincere loving intelligent parents got it wrong and I got it wrong and get it wrong about me.
The illusion of a smorgasbord of cultural choice that presents itself to every generation in post modern society is self limiting. The structure of the limitations are systemic as society exists in a holon maintained by natural language as is illustrated by the ruminations of United States supreme court of late. It is not a question of good or bad education alone, it is a question about where to I begin in me.
The ontology from which my iStates arise in Mi~iMind originates in the sea of We that my village of origin swam like Swans in and the U and Non-U crest upon my current status.
current residence
The use of a pathway, paved with empty paving stones in the present from the inside out in an embodied, interdependent human Me~Mind living one time forward lifetime is a feature of the Mi~iMind emergent human knowledge solutions.
This description cannot be understood without the experience of understanding the nous in the present the comes from a clear view of the deontic and inferential although what can help to un
is part of the solution
For 80% of our embodied Me~Mind iStates the hoi polloi bound life is worth living and there are at least two infinities available for use with our passionately identified iStates, which we can inhabit along with the self imposed mystery of the knowable unnameable. The Shamen knows the unnameable the person in the Me~Mind that is the Shaman in words does not, in Paraquay with Aiwescha or Stone Henge at the salstice.
The hoi polloi iState is systemically bound for many reasons and therefore shows er
For just a little while, the lecturer became the case study, the observed rat in the maze in a freshman Psychology class at Trinity College Dublin in autumn during the mid 1980's. The subject was Behaviourism a branch of psychology much vaunted by dating sites and security services even today and the focus was upon how our individual behaviour can be controlled by others in a group. Prior to a subsequent lecture the class agreed to look at the lecturer only when he was on one side of the lectern and most particularly when he was at the outer edge of the stage on that side of the lectern. Yes he ended up spending most of his time in the unfamiliar place at the edge of the stage because when he was there the class looked at him.
The people pleaser and the imposter in us knows this response and our inner critic knows how we respond when we find ourselves in the thrall of some apparently irrational neediness that can be sensed internally in a capable human Me~Mind by a change on our breathing rhythm which announces the onset our familiar fight and flight responses, more times than not.